skipped lecture as i cant make it on time for school. baaaddd girl i know. but cant be help la. eventhough i made new friends and groupings are all done. stilll i dooonnnnnntt like that class. i only like my classmates. my awesome classmates. 5 more days and my dearest girls are back! FIINNNNAAALLLLYYYYYY!

i cant blog in school. idk why blogger just wont load. sucky i know.

i feel like i dont really have anything to blog about. life pretty the same you know. it's just that people amaze me. with their behaviour and thinking. why is it so easy to blame on others but not yourself? why is it so hard to look see other peoples flaws and fault but not yourself? and why people love to push other to the wall? it get pretty exhausting you knowww especially when you have these type of people as your family members.


take a peek at my newly done skins.


i'm in need of holidays. and i know, if i suggest this to firman he will say;

1. no promises
2. i cant take leave
3. no one can take over me at work
4. i dont want to intervene on my uncles off-day
5. lets wait till we're financially stable
6. and so on and so forth

so how? lets wait till we grow old and too weak to go anywhere. it's exasperating at times you know. not like i wanna go New York or Australia or Korea, whaaaattt.. KL also can apeee... so near, and cheap somemore. itu pun susah!

maybe i should plan a getaway myself and my gfs or my polymates. that will be fun. or maybe with my ex-primary school clique. hmmm.... the thought of it je da thrilling it will be super duper fun if it come true.

anyway tutorial today. fuck la.

i'm down with fever yet again.


Firman bought me that Taiwan drama series DVD. "you're my destiny". Eventhough i watched it on youtube i still wanna re-watch it again and again. and he also bought me a tub of haagen danz cookies and cream ice-cream. :) so tell me why i should not love him? heee... :)

i think i'm falling sick again, i have a bad sore throat now and feel rather feverish. just hope i'm gonna be fine by tomorrow.

Baby, i wish you all the best for your presentation. and i know you will do very, very well. and you gonna make everyone proud especially me! :)

i'm gonna check my temperature now! bye!


firman out playing soccer. so being a good girl, i stayed at home for both days. catching on my sleeps and lazing around at home. tmr marks beginning of week 11. wow! so fast right? it means i'm left with two weeks more for ending of FYP.

and my supervisor have yet to give us a new task. damn it la. why so irresponsible? anyway, i wanted to blog on how my first tutorial went last friday but blogger decide to stop working and i cant blog. anyway, i survived anyhow. nothing great.

i think this post is getting boring as second past. so yes dude, bye!


Test Results:

23% ->Words of Affirmation

23% ->Quality Time

7% ->Receiving Gifts

30%->Acts of Service

17%->Physical Touch

How to Interpret Your Profile Score
Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary love language. If two scores are identical, you are bi-lingual(you have two Primary love languages). If the scores of your primary language and your secondary language are close(for example, 10 and 9 respectively), it indicates both are important to you. The highest possible score for any one love language is 12. Having a clear picture of your primary and secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior. Think back over the past and ask yourself, "What have I most often requested of my spouse?" Chances are your answer will lie within the scope of your primary and secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love. Your requests, however, might have come across as nagging or criticizing and thus drove your spouse away.

did these quiz! FIRMANSHAH TAKE NOTE! anyway eventhough receiving gifts is the lowest i still want that Aino Sony ericsson phone and that blue Sony DG Camera. thankyou. :)


as im typing this, i'm all alone in the lab. playing games and eating my chicken pie. good life i must say. finally called my head in charge of final year project and talk about my attendance. so everything should be okay now. i just need to be more active?! in attending my classes for that bloddy repeat modules.

3 more hours or so till i head home. well, after tomorrow i'm left with 2 weeks for fyp but 15 weeks till my module ends? i shall not think further of what gonna happen. i'll just live the day as it is.

oh god, who am i kidding?


I'm still feeling guilty with the fact that i'm absent from school again. i did have MC for it but knowing that i skip my first tutorial doesnt help. i really hate the fact that i have to repeat that bloody module and i still cant stomach it till now.

received and email from one of my most favorite lecturer that he will be treating selected student to have dinner at grass root on our final week of FYP! and somehow i must say i'm touched. come to think of it, its close to 3 years. and it will all be well, if i'm able to graduate with my dearest classmates. after all we went through together. it was neither hard nor easy that 2 years plus but with them, it makes it all worthwhile. now, 3 extra months without any of them. i feel lost. just lost without someone i could rely on. i wonder how, i'm going to make through all the weeks like seriously. as it for now, i skipped 3 lesson out of 4. and the first week Erlina and Evangeline went for Beijing, i rathe starve myself till i fall sick the following week rather than eat all alone. i don't even dare walk around the school and have short break. i sat in that freezing cold room till i go numb without any form of enetertaiment. i know i cant go on like these, but this diploma loses its meaning for me.

i have always dream of the graduation day. where all of us will be all overwhelm that's its over but yes, it will be for them and me? i have yet to even finish my attachment. its disappointing you know, when all your life you have been working for this, and at the end of the day its seems to be over when you have yet to even go through it.

i'm still figuring where it went wrong. i thought i could handle that paper well, even though it wasnt that easy. i thought i will be able to escape it since i did pretty okay on my first interim. but i'm wrong. so wrong. and to make it worst, it have to happen on my final year and there's no supp paper. how i wish there is.

i wish that i can quit these diploma and still know where i wanna go after that. i wish i have more choices. i wish i can turn back time and went for ITE instead. i wish i never have to live up to my parents expectations. cos once i failed i have myself to blame. i wish i have that courage to stand and go through with this. courage, is all i need. please.

you lecturer, change my entire life. shattered not only my hope but my parents as well. up to this day i have yet to even tell them that this daughter of theirs are not able to go up the stage to receive that bloody diploma. this daughter of theirs, who have to go through all different kind of shit by various people just to live up to that dreams of theirs. this daughter of theirs, wish she could just run away from this. this daughter of theirs, seriously thinks that she dont deserve these extra 3 months. just so you know you ruin my life. and i'm gonna hate you for that.

lecture was unbearable but i survived it somehow or rather. dont ask me how. just adapting to it. like seriously, i'm having doubts that i will somehow make it to week 18. :(

i cant stand the boredom in school. SERIOUSLY! i have nothing to do. no new task given and my supervisor not coming in. might as well, i just stay at home and have ample rest right?! i need that rest. god knows how tiring it is sitting here for 9 hours and doing nothing but waiting for time to pass! super ANNOYING!

4 more weeks of FYP. :) something to look forward to?


its nearly noon, and i havent bath. Wait! dont go ewwwww on me. it's sunday and i'm plain lazy for now okay.

get to chat with my best two girls online. and i went from smiling to giggling to laughing out loud. i cant believe that they have something on and they did not tell me sooner! i'm so mad angry with them! and the fact that i have to wait till tomorrow for more, is madness! nobody waits till tmr for red-hot-new- gossips right?! havent you girls watched Gossip girl?!

oh wells, i still have to wait eventhough i whine so much. so yes, lets wait. for now, i'm going have a long cold shower. the sun here is killing me! and have my brunch! bye dudes! :)